refleksi mindset #1

dulu sewaktu aku kecil, aku menggambar. gambarnya jelek karena sampai sekarang pun aku tidak bisa menggambar bagus dengan tangan. waktu itu aku gambar tiga orang. cowok satu, cewek nya dua. yang satu ceweknya masih kecil, rambutnya lurus agak keriting. lalu aku warnai gambar itu, tapi tidak pada bagian telapak tangan, karena menurutku susah. waktu itu aku menggunakan crayon yang ujungnya besar, sedangkan tangannya kecil. lalu aku tunjukkan gambar itu kepada ayahku. beliau adalah seorang programer dan designer. lalu waktu dia melihat gambar itu dia menanyakan mengapa tangannya tidak diwarnai, dan aku jawab dengan jujur bahwa aku tidak bisa. dan ayahku menjawab jangan tunjukin ke aku kalo kamu tidak bisa.

chance, choice, a kiss, and believing

let the right one in
let the old dreams die
let the wrong ones go

my best friend, she's just got a new boyfriend. and yet, she still think of her ex, over 2 years ago. what do you think? do you think what she did is wrong? for some thought, i thought she was wrong. but then, i realize, or i remember. you see, it's not that easy.

this afternoon i told her: do not disappoint him. well do you think it's gonna be that hard to make it happen? so hard. so hard. so hard. i'd been there. when i was about to begin a new relationship with my present boyfriend, i was try to conceal my self from a complicated story. and yes it's still carried on a bit when i date my present boyfriend. for several time he was upset and disappointed, well of course. and when he read this, he might overcome it again, i'm sorry.

but you know what, it's all right now. i feel comfortable, i feel happy, i love him. i didn't give a shit for what happen in back then. and i don't care if i barely know him for 2 month, i like him, why not? it is a risk to love, what if doesn't work out? ah, but what if it does work out ;)

you see, there's always gonna be some ruff time. but when it does, just believe for what you've done. you're willing to take him as your boyfriend, i'm sure that is something. when i ran into some trouble, my boyfriend always said: you need a kiss, then everything will be alright. my favorite quote of him. i understand that everything would not change just by a kiss. but that kiss reminds me, i have my strength. and it might be not a kiss, but in another way you guys choose of believe in, the point is don't regret, the universe has set us.

no one falls in love by choice, it is by chance. no one stays in love by chance, it is by work. and no one falls out of love by chance, it's by choice. you've got the chance, you've chosen, and now it's time for you to work it out :)

12

you have been the best thing that could have happened to me, giving me so much laughter, so much joy, and much of love.
i know it's not 12 anymore, but i'd just like to say thanks, and remind you how very very much i love you. happy 12, much love on our and always.


fian, ini hadiahku buat kamu bulan ini. maaf cuman bisa ngasih ini.

aku tau 12 kali ini nggak begitu menyenangkan. padahal bulan lalu, kamu kasih aku hadiah, aku suka banget. malem itu, kamu ngasih aku hadiah yang cuman kamu yang bisa ngasih. kamu ngasih aku cerita bagus, terus aku dipeluk. 12-12-10, aku lupa kita ngapain, yang jelas hal itu menimbulkan ini http://bit.ly/hMrTbO , haha.

hei boy, i miss those moments :(