seems you have ex problem ?

pacar (yang dari dulu kuanggap) pertamaku, aku merasakan oh ini yang namanya pacaran beneran? we talked about interest, life, sometime about love.

i remember when one day he asked me about love, and i answered "the only thing i know about love is how to spell it"

and yes, we did talked about ex. dia cerita tentang mantan-mantan pacarnya. seringkali dia bercerita tentang kekurangan mereka, and i just enjoyed listen to it. dan (kurasa) selalu, di akhir ceritanya aku bertanya "lalu kekurangan mana dariku yang akan kamu ceritakan ke pacarmu yang selanjutnya jika nanti kita bermantan? pick."  
i know, banyak kekuranganku. and i just enjoyed confessing to him. di dalam pikiranku: what i did is always ok and cool, i'm free.

dia selalu menjawab pertanyaan ku itu dengan santai, no no there won't be any after you dear. 

but no, we broke up laah. (for another girls out there, it happened! don't be so shocked!)

easy. putus? ok. berteman.

but no, after 2 weeks. fight.

kita bermantan, bukan berteman.

sekarang kamu punya +1 cerita menarik tentang mantanmu untuk kau ceritakan ke pacarmu selanjutnya. dan kejadian hari ini (28sep09 -red) bagiku yang paling shame dan crazy. tapi apapun yang akan kamu ceritakan ke mereka, mau beneran atau ditambah-tambahin, 

i'm still and always cooler than you (haha ngaco, tapi emang sih! :P)

and oh yeah just little add on, teman native ku pernah tanya "sucks with love, huh? i feel bad for you, the guy you have had with is just not worth it. i know girl, plain regret."

regret? hmm.. nope.

i've loved, and i don't regret :)

well maybe a little dissapointed :p

masih sayang? pasti lah, one day if you dead i'm going to cry of course.

but now i got someone, and just hoped it's getting better and better :D