vulnerable ?

you know how easily and suddenly these things happened, beginning in a playful teasing and ending in something little warmer than friendship. we both know it was just a game, or maybe it was only me that pretend assuming it as a game, that i'm scared it'll moved on, more than friendship. well it's must be good, but no, not at this timeline. i'm not spoused to in love with you, and so do you mostly. well did you? i really have no idea. i just open through the sky flash memories that i've told you so i'll keep it, and you just don't believe me.

there are mornings i wake up with the memory of you, and nights i stayed up late think about you. your gentle voice still banging on my ears. calls passing hours with only delicated grazes between us. how you say goodnight at absurd length. it is innocent and very.

it's as if my sub conscious is still lingering on what we had, even though in my conscious has given up on what could have been. wanting to live with my life with you in it became such a habit that i still catch my self wishing you could be here to share in my contentment when i'm sitting in front of my laptop, just like the old days. i've told you i never sign an excact subject of my fantasies, but lately you've been outfront.
9 juni 2010 , jam 0.02
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