midnight show, third row

there was a point before life itself, when we all decided to forget everything we've known. it was necessary so life had a point, so that it would all makes sense. like fellow blind travelers, we're all blinded by our un-knowing-ness.

during the last moments, i began to understand something.

only from an experiential point of view, the question of right or wrong vanishes. there's no one to blame. there's nothing to blame. there shouldn't even be a need to question. he had his choices, and i had mine. we all have our freedom to decide. we all have our preference to experience. i've forgiven him for leaving. i've forgiven life for creating this drama of birth and death

you could never answer those questions.
dan malam ini kita ulangi lagi pembicaraan itu, berat, menyenangkan. love and life, have never been easy.

dedicated to 24 maret 2010.
that night, you know how i wish it was enough.



giliran siapa malam ini? ;)